such a great dancer

hahai. i feel like heaven when i saw his eyes. His smooth lips telling he wants me to be his friend. But, How??? As if he's too far away.
But, he isn't.

what??!!! gud am. everyone..!!

i dont know how to start this blog.
i want to cry.
want to be in silence.
but i cant. maybe because i am bothered- bothered because i always think about my grandmother. how could'nt think of her? She's in the hospital.
It's a big shock for me. Maybe because just last week, we had a big school event party. And that is all i wanted. Now i've got that wish, there would be something in return. and that, my gandmother is sick.
My God, i dont know what im gonna do. My mother is tired of taking care of my granny and i wish, someone will help her.
yes, i can. its just so no one's home and there are many thieves in our place. I hope my granny wasn't sick. I hope she'll be alright. that's all. that's all i've wanted.

-- those people who have read my blog. please help me pray my grandmother. And those people who sympathized with me, thank you very much.. God will ALWAYS bless us. goodnight.

hahai... last nigh is so wonderful. the campus pop thing??? such a great experience.... i've been driven by the sound of music they played, the crowd that pushes through me, people who kept in dancing and strolling and especially the guys whom i had danced. they're all very hot for me. i cant imagine i can dance with them especially the time when i and leo,sepe,ralph,rael,jad,kaki,victor and the rest of the gang dance with me. the dirty dancing thing. woho! i feel so alive and hyper. i met many friends and guys. i want to meet them again. hahai. i hope they will greet me in the corridors or in the school... such a great night!!! hahahah

august 10 to 11, 2007 was our youth camp. such a great experence i had. being left alone was my weakness. why? due to myself inferiority. well i guess ill need to be more cofident. i am confident. actually being with him is such a awesome experience. i adore him. but, i dont look forward to him because i know that he would not be mine. i know im damn stupid to wrote about him. how could i stop talking about him when all in my mind is martin. but, there is certain point when i saw him very frustrated- frustrated because he's alone. he feels that he's nothing. hes wrong. in that time i want to approach him and talk to him. i can't and i'll never will. if i have another chance, i promise to my self that i'll give the rest of the time with him. such a great dancer.